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I read somewhere: "The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you somebedy else" (E.E.Cummings). This is just such a true statement for me. I tried to fit in, and felt out of place. With the passing years, having experienced lots of unpleasentness I have realized that it is impossible to be happy while trying to satisfy everybody and follow the conventions that don't really agree with me or do not fit in my life. Finding myself still...

Sunday 25 August 2013

Powstanie Warszawskie (Tadeusz Bor-Komorowski)

W wakacje jak zwykle pojechalam z corka do Polski. Tym razem odwiedzilysmy Warszawe i spedzilysmy troche czasu z moja przyjaciolka (w jej nowym wspanialym mieszkanku). Nie widzialam Warszawy juz kilka lat. I jakie to wspaniale miasto! Wybralysmy sie do wielu wspanialych miejsc aby spedzic razem czas, a poza tym przedstawic mojej nastoletniej corce troche historii Polski. 'Podroze ksztalca' - tak tak, zgadzam sie z tym w stu procentach. (ah, tak mi brakuje polskich liter - ale probowalam juz tyle razy ustawic je w moim laptopie i nie dzialaja!).
Jednym z miejsc, ktore odwiedzilysmy to  muzeum Powstania Warszawskiego. Wspaniale muzeum. Moje wyedukowane w Wielkiej Brytanii dziecko sluchalo naszych opowiesci o Powstaniu z zainterowaniem. Pozniej latwiej nam bylo wytlumaczyc jej znaczenie pomnika Powstancow i tablic upamietniajacych to wydazenie.

Zakupilam ksiazke 'Powstanie Warszawskie' autorstwa generala powstania - Tadeusza Bora-Komorowskiego z plyta CD z orginalnymi przemowieniami i wywiadami. I coz to za ksiazka! Z ciezkim sercem czytalam jak to naprawde bylo, od strony dowodcy tego powstania, tak z zaplecza. I tyle sie dowiedzialam! Bo mnie w szkole (w czasach jeszcze komunistycznych) uczono bardzo okrojonej (ocenzurowanej)  wiedzy na ten temat (wybielajac oczywiscie totalnie brak poparcia ze strony Sowietow). A tu dowiedzialam sie nawet ze Sowieci do powstania nawet namawiali, a potem zamilkli, czekajac po drugiej stronie Wisly na jego upadek. Wszystko tu jest pieknie wyjasnione - krok za krokiem.

Przemowienie generala do Polonii w Nowym Jorku z 1946 roku (na dolaczonym do ksiazki CD) jest bardzo wzruszajace. Przedstawia on w nim cala sytuacje polityczna tamtych czasow i ma nadzieje na szybkie odzyskanie niepodleglosci przez Polske.... i pomyslalam sobie: jakie to smutne ze to zyczenie spelnilo sie dopiero po ponad 40-tu latach!

Maly fragment ksiazki:
"Obok wszystkich innych okropnosci "kanalarze" spotykali teraz na swojej drodze najrozniejsze zasadzki i niespodzianki. Niemcy wrzucali do kanalow granaty reczne, miny i puszki z gazem duszacym, blokowali przejscia workami z cementem i gruzem, wieszali wewnatrz kanalow odbezpieczone granaty reczne. Woda spietrzona za tama usypana przez Niemcow zatapiala tych, ktorzy te tame usuwali, gaz dusil i oslepial. Czasem dochodochilo do walk pod ziemia z saperami niemieckimi. Toczyly sie one ciemnosciach, w nieprawdopodobnym fetorze, pomiedzy ludzmi brodzcymi po pas w blocie. Walczono z bliska granatami recznymi, na noze, a komu braklo broni, ten zanurzal i topil przeciwnika w odchodach.
Wreszcie Niemcy wpadli na nowy pomysl: w odleglosci kilkuset metrow od najczesciej uzywanego przejscia spuscili do kanalu wieksza ilosc ropy naftowej, ktora podpalili. (...) Groze walk w kanalach powiekszaly jeszcze jeki rannych i histeryczne smiechy ludzi, ktorzy nie wytrzymywali nerwowo tego, co sie tam dzialo. Zelazne pancerze przewodow kanalizacyjnych potegowaly kazdy odglos, kazdy jek czy okrzyk; kazdy huk odbijal sie stokrotnym echem, mozna go bylo uslyszec z odleglosci paruset metrow."
 

Sunday 14 July 2013

'Donde se cruzan los senderos' & 'La voz del silencio' (Carmen Malarée)

Durante mis clases de "Español: la conversación y la cultura" hemos hablado mucho sobre la situación política en Chile en los años después de la segunda guerra mundial hasta los tiempos de dictadura, entonces leí estos libros de Carmen Malarée - una escritora chilena -  con mucho interés.

´´Donde se cruzan los senderos”    -   El libro describe la vida cotidiana en un remoto pueblo chileno 'Aguas Sanas' y el fundo (que está cerca) entre 1939 y 1949. Todo empieza con el encuentro entre Dominga (mujer del director de escuela) y Amanda (mujer de un farmacéutico) que están conversando sobre el futuro de Pilar - una niña de 5 años que ha llegado equivocadamente a este pueblo. Lo único que saben de ella es su nombre y que vino de España y que llegó en el borde de Winnipeg para refugiarse de la Guerra Civil Española. Amanda, siguiendo la decisión de su esposo, quiere llevarla a un orfanato pero Dominga decide llevarla a su casa y cuidarla y educarla como si ella fuera su propia hija. El misterio sobre el origen de Pilar no se revela hasta las últimas páginas pero mientras tanto muchas cosas pasan en este pueblo entre diferentes personajes. Hay muchas historias individuales, pero entrelazadas, por ejemplo: una aventura amorosa entre una señora casada y un joven profesor, una historia de un matrimonio que después de años de indiferencia y orgullo descubren amor y felicidad matrimonial, también una historia muy emocionante de dos amantes que se encuentran después de muchos años y averiguan que su separación fue por causa de un malentendido, una trágica muerte de una adolescente inocente y muchos otros cuentos emocionantes. En mi opinión este libro es muy femenino. Pero hay también comentarios sobre la situación política durante esta época y yo estoy satisfecha con mi misma de poder entenderla.

 “La voz del silencio”   - Una novela corta que me tenía atrapada hasta el fin. Un terremoto, dos hombres y una adolescente atrapados entre las ruinas de un edificio. Uno de dos hombres antes de morir revela un misterio de desaparición y la muerte del hijo del otro hombre atrapado – la chica es un testigo de reconciliación con el pasado. Una historia muy emocionante – que me hizo llorar.



I am a very happy owner of both of the books with a personal dedication from the author. What a lovely and interesting lady she is!  I do hope Carmen publishes soon again.


 

"One Good Turn" (by Kate Atkinson)

Finished reading 'One Good Turn' almost two weeks ago.  Gripping -same as other books by Kate Atkinson  that I have read so far  - I could not put it down. Jackson Brodie - ex-policeman, ex-private eye, ex-husband, visits Ediburgh during the Ediburgh Festival, two years after 'Case Histories'. He is still with Julia (whom he met in 'Case Histories') but only just.
The novel starts with a road-rage incident and developes into murders somehow connected with one another. Russian girls, 'Honda man', a hitman, a writer of criminal novels, a wife of a rich dishonest businessman etc.. all together much much lighter than the 'Case Histories'. It even made me lough at times - at the end of the day it is subtitled "A jolly murder mystery" which implies that it is not as serious as the dark and gloomy 'Case Histories'.
 I love the way Atkinson tells the story from different characters' perspectives - I felt I wanted to know more about them and their lives. I have realised, with every Atkinson's book I read,  that the author has this capacity of encouraging certain bond between the characters and me - as it is easy to get an insight of the characters' mental state and inner feelings. Very enjoyable read, and I would recommend it as a holiday read.

One good quote (from Jackson Brodie):
"You said five little words to someone - How can I help you? - and it was as if you'd mortgaged you soul out to them."
 

Thursday 20 June 2013

'Case Histories' (Kate Atkinson)

This is the second book by Kate Atkinson that I have read, and Gosh did I enjoy it... I only confirmed my-previously-made opinion that Kate Atkinson is a brilliant writer.

Different cases, in different time - yet all connected as one private detective - Jackson Brodie - investigates them. A mystery of a child that dissapeared over thirty years ago, a murder of a young women ten years earlier, a story of a young mother sentenced to prison for murder of her husband... All is revealed in the end but the reader is kept in anticipation as the facts are given out slowly and in moderation presented within a totally manipulated timeline - once we are in the present, than in the past, then something happens then we are reading about what happened just before, than again we are going back to the past, all a bit gloomy yet written in great style.
 
I am so pleased  that there are more books by Kate Atkinson in my local library.

Saturday 15 June 2013

'Portrait in Sepia' (Isabel Allende)

I have just finished reading this wonderful novel and I am totally under the spell of the style and the characters in the book. I borrowed it from one of the participants of the  'Spanish - Conversation and Culture' class I attend each week. I assumed that I would not be returning it for a few weeks as I was in the middle of reading other books at the time. I couldn't have been more wrong. The moment I opened the book and immersed myself in reading the first few pages my attention shifted - I put aside all the other books, to read them later. I simply had to continue reading the 'Portrait...' It didn't take me long - I simply 'swallowed' it (I mean I read it very quickly).
Sitting on my sofa at home with a cup of coffee or tea in one hand and the book in the other, I was transferred to the 19th century San Francisco (US) and  Chile (with a quick visit to London and Paris). The story takes place before, during and after the War of the Pacific up until the first decade of the 20th century. A family saga with the most colourful, powerful and unpredictable characters one can imagine. Aurora del Valle is the narrator in the book. She describes her upbringing and the stories of her maternal and paternal relatives. Yet, not everything is revealed straight away as she does not actually know for a very long time who her parents were. She is in a strong need for closure and slowly over the years she keeps on finding out .... Aurora, suffers from terrible nightmares where people in black pyjamas appear. In the last pages the horrible truth behind the black-pyjamas people is revealed.
Aurora was brought up by her paternal grandmother - Paulina del Valle - a huge-in-size business-orientated extremely-rich matron with the most interesting and headstrong personality - firstly in San Francisco then in Chile.  Her paternal grandmother was Chilean. Her maternal grandparents were Chilean and Chinese, but she could not remember them since she had lived with them only until she was 5. Throughout her life she missed her Chinese grandfather emotionally (as if there was a huge hole in her)even though her little head could not remember him physically (and she did not even know for a very long time he even existed) - as a little girl she had had such a strong wonderful bond with him that it affected all her life.
In my opinion Tao Chi (Aurora's Chinese grandfather) is the most beautiful character here - with his eagerness to help people (he had an acupuncture clinic in San Francisco), wonderful love for his wife, his children and Aurora, and humble yet noble personality and dis-attachment to material things (as for whatever money he could save he would buy young slave-prostitutes from the brothels of china town to set them free and give them chance of a descent life). There are many other brilliantly portrayed personalities: Paulina del Valle, her English butler Williams (later her second husband!), Severo del Valle (who married Aurora's mother when she was pregnant), and Nivea - second wife of Severo (with whom she had 15 children!)...
I am definitely going to read more of Isabel Allende.  I already have one of her books on my Kindle and there are plenty in the local library. I might even treat myself to one or two of her books in original Spanish.
 
Quotes:
 
" 'I'm going to die' I screamed, throwing myself on her.
  ' This is not a convenient time to do that,' my grandmother replied dryly."
(Aurora just discovered she was bleeding (menstruating) for the first time, on the same day Civil War broke out)

" 'You already lost one leg in the war, Severo; if you lose the other, you'll look like a dwarf'.
'I don't have any choice, I'd be killed in Santiago anyway.'
'Don't be so melodramatic, this isn't the opera!' "
(conversation between Severo and his aunt Paulina before he left for another war - he indeed had lost one leg in the previous war)

" 'A printing press? Here? In my house?' my grandmother bawled.
  'I'm afraid so, Aunt,' murmured Nivea.
  'Shit! What will we do now!' And the matriarch fell back into her chair with her head in her hands, muttering that her own family had betrayed her, that we were going to pay the price for such incomparable idiocy, that we were imbeciles, (...)

"Since she was always pregnant. Nivea never relied on counting days but calculated instead the proximity of the coming delivery by the number of times she used the chamber pot. When for two nights in a row she got up thirteen times, she announced at breakfast that it was time to send for a doctor, and in fact her contractions began that same day."

"He was breathing, but his soul was already travelling through other dimensions. 'Good-bye, Papa,' I told him. It was the first time I had called him that. He agonized for two days more, and at the dawn of the third day he died like a baby chick."
(death of Aurora's father - she found out he was her father only a couple of months before)

" 'Light is the language of photography, the soul of the world. There is no light without shadow, just as there is no happiness without pain,' Don Juan Ribero told me seventeen years ago during the lesson he gave that fist day in his studio on the Plaza de Armas."



Sunday 9 June 2013

"Leaf Storm" (by Gabriel García Márquez)

It has been such a long time since I read Márquez! I am still remembering what impression ´One hundred years of solitude´ made on me when I read it as a teenager (in Polish). Everyone was reading it those days in Poland (I am talking late 80s here). Anyway, since then I have not come back to reading Márquez till now.
 
This novella (short novel) introduces the village of Macondo (which is exactly the same place as in ´One hundred years of solitude´). It is just that ´Leaf Storm´ was published in 1955 and ´One hundred years...´ in 1967. One can read ´Leaf Storm´ at one sitting really as it is not exactly long. But it is not a light read. Written from the three individuals perspectives - the grandfather (the Colonel), his daughter and his grandson. Three of them go to the corner house to the wake of the hated-by-the-whole-village doctor. They come to fulfil the Colonel´s promise given to the doctor years back - the promise to bury the body of the doctor when the time comes. It is a gruesome scene - filthy neglected house in which lonely, withdrawn and rejected (with quite peculiar and not exactly pleasant personality) doctor hang himself. His body gets put in the coffin, one shoe left behind.... They are waiting for the official permission to bury the body. Time is dragging, and in the meantime the reader is being told the story of the doctor (and bits of the town´s story) in retrospection and in no particular order by entering the thoughts of those three characters (granddad, daughter and her son). It kept me guessing and interested. Yet, not everything is revealed - not even the name of the doctor, or where he really came from nor what happened to his Indian mistress (who mysteriously disappeared years earlier). Gloomy but brilliant!  
 
I am planning on reading ´One hundred year of solitude´ again but in original - the copy of the book on my book shelf - a gift from my partner - awaiting me patiently. I know it is not going to be easy to read it in Spanish (even though I have  read it before and in my native language - but it was over 20 years ago so it does not count) but I have been wanting to do it for quite a while now. 

Thursday 6 June 2013

'Gandhi' A photographic story of a life (by Amy Pastan)

It is a very well written biography and a quick interesting read. I know it is primarily written for younger people to introduce them to this important character of the relatively recent history, but I would very much recommend it to anyone who is interested in finding out about Gandhi's life and work but would not want to get into all the detail. Feel-good shiny quality paper and the content loaded with photographs and notes explaining key terminology or briefly introducing  other important characters in Gandhi's life make it feel like a treasure. I think this book would be a brilliant gift to a teenager. I fairly enjoyed reading it, and will strongly recommend it to my daughter in the near future.

Thursday 30 May 2013

El laberinto del Fauno (película 2006)

El laberinto del Fauno, una película inventada, escrita y dirigida por Guillermo del Toro. Cada vez que la veo estoy tan conmovida que tengo que llorar. Es una película muy emocionante y llena de símbolos.
 
Es 1944 en España - los primeros años de la dictadura de Franco. A Ofelia - la protagonista - le gustan los cuentos de hadas. Ofelia es totalmente inocente y en mi opinión simboliza todo lo inocente: los niños, la gente en sociedad española. El capitán Vidal - el antagonista - está obsesionado con el tiempo y siempre lleva consigo el reloj de su padre. Vidal es un facista, una persona muy cruel y brutal, totalmente sin emociones. El definitivamente simboliza la dictadura de Franco y el nuevo orden de España. En la película la realidad (con sus verdaderas escenas de terror) está mezclada con la fantasía (representada por el fauno, hagas, hombre pálido, los cuentos, el libro de las encrucijadas, y el reíno subterráneo y otros elementos más). Todo eso le hace una película inolvidable.
En el mundo mágico Ofelia es una princesa perdida a quien le buscan sus padres verdaderos -  el rey y la reína del reíno subterráneo. Para regresar a su reíno - Ofelia - tiene que pasar por tres pruebas muy difíciles y al final sacrificar su propia vida. Al mismo tiempo, en el mundo real Capitán Vidal - un verdadero monstro - controla la gente de este zona de España, persigue a los guerilleros, tortura y mata personas. La madre de Ofelia muere al dar a luz su hijo - el hermano de Ofelia.
Todo un verdadero horror.

Los simbolos, en la película, son muy fuertes.
El árbol, por ejemplo. La higuera seca con un sapo que la destruye por dentro, parece en su forma a un útero de la mujer. La higuera seca puede significar el útero de la madre de Ofelia que está muriendo por el embarazo - por culpa del niño de Vidal (y ella). O más probablemente la higuera puede significar España que sufre tanto por la dictadura que por dentro arruina todo el país.
 
El hombre pálido, una creatura horrorosa que come a las inocentes que se atreven tocar la comida del banquiete que él guarda, puede significar cualquiera de los dos: el capitán Vidal o Franco mismo. Los verdaderos monstros en el mundo real.

Él cuento de la montaña y la rosa inmortal va así:
"Hace muchos muchos años, en un país muy lejano y triste existió una enorme montaña de piedra negra y áspera. Al caer la tarde en la cima de esa montaña, florecía todas las noches una rosa que otorgaba la inmortalidad, sin embargo nadie se atrevía acercarse a ella, pues sus numerosas espinas estaban envenenadas. Entre los hombres solo se hablaba del miedo a la muerte y al dolor, pero nunca de la promesa de la inmortalidad. Y, todas las tardes la rosa se marchitaba. Sin poder otorgar sus dones a persona alguna, olvidada y perdida en la cima de la montaña de piedra fría, sola hasta el fin de los tiempos."´
La rosa puede significar el pueblo español rodeado por el veneno del facismo, y nadie le puede ayudar. O el país triste puede simplemente significar España, y la rosa puede ser la libertad, y las espinas con veneno - el facismo y dictadura.
 
Quiero reflexionar sobre una afirmación en relación con la película:
"Ejercer el derecho a la desobediencia es una forma de ser libre."
El director Guillermo del Toro durante su entrevista con Jack Rico (¨"Jack Rico entrevista al director Guillermo del Toro sobre Pan´s Labyrinth" - YouTube) dijo que "la desobediencia es la clave de la fé y de la responsibilidad". La niña tiene que hacer lo que ella cree y lo hace por su instinto y está de acuerdo con su corazón. Y lo demuestra en casi todo lo que hace. Por ejemplo al final aunque quiere tanto volver al reíno subterráneo no sique la instrucíondel Fauno y no está dispuesta a sacrificar a su pequeño hermanito. Pero matada por Vidal sin embargo entra al reíno subterráneo como princesa. Resulta que ha elejido bien. Aunque ha desobedecido consigue lo que siempre quería y está libre de remordimientos.
 
La muerte de Dr Ferreiro es una escena que muestra desobedencia como una forma de ser libre. Dr Ferreiro desobedece a Vidal y mata (eutaniza) un pobre rebelde torturado por Vidal, lo mata pare que el no sufra más y porque el se lo pide. Dr Ferreiro lo paga con su propia vida, pero antes de morir dice a Vidal:
"Es que obedecer por obedecer, así sin pensarlo, esto solo lo hacen gentes como usted, Capitán."

Sunday 5 May 2013

'Life After Life'- Kate Atkinson

What a book! What a style!
 
I got encouraged to read this book by recommendations on Amazon. And as it was on my local library's list of most-read books at the moment I added my name to the online queue of people awaiting the copy of it. I think I was 9th on the list, but it did not take long, only a few weeks, and I received an email from the library to pick it up. Well, that was encouraging, it meant people had read it quickly.
 
And yes, it is definitely a page-turner. Big time. I could not put it down, and even though the book is not short (477 pages) it took me about 4 days to read it (during breakfast before going to work, after work and a bit of weekend). It grasped me from the very beginning. The baby dies, the same baby gets born again, the same child dies, and is born again and again. I cannot count the amount of times I cried. Almost every time Ursula dies, every time something wrong happens to her.
 
"What if you had the chance to live your life again and again until you finally got it right?" is written at the back cover of the book. What if? Ursula did, and with a vague memory of consequences of certain decisions in her previous lives, her life took unexpected turns each time. She lost life as a child many a times, she lost life during London blitz a number of times, she was raped, she was murdered by her husband, she was entertained by Hitler before the war, she was childless, she had a child and committed suicide in Berlin at the end of war,  she was single, she had husbands, she killed Hitler, she died of brain cancer (I think), she was bombed, every time 'Darkness fell'- she always died, her life never really fully satisfying. But is it ever? Is it ever satisfying? Every time 'darkness' will fall - we will always die in the end, won't we? 
There is no pay-off in the book. She is just born again on 11 Feb 1910, yet again.
 
It is hardly a new idea. And I am thinking here about the 1998 film 'Sliding doors' (with Gwyneth Partlow) where she lives two parallel lives - in one she catches the train and discovers her boyfriend cheating on her, in the other the door slides before she can jump on board and does not find out about the cheating - her life led completely differently just because of that little detail. Another example, the 1993 'Groundhog day' (with Bill Murray and Andie MacDowell) where a main character gets to repeat the same day over and over again until he gets it right - changes completely and gets the girl. Also, this reminds of the famous and popular scientific theory of parallel universes, which Micho Kaku explains so well in his book 'Parallel Universes'. According to one of the theories of the multiple universes, every time one takes a decision another parallel universe is created with the opposite or different decision being taken and therefore different life path and consequences. Mind blowing.
Anyway, going back to Kate Atkinson, the author of 'Life After Life', I am soooo going to read some more of her. I think she is a brilliant novelist with a wonderful capturing style.
 
Some quotes from the book:
 
" 'She doesn't believe in dogs,' Bridget said. ' Dogs are hardly an article of faith,' Sylvie said."
 
"Childbirth was a brutal affair. If she had been in charge of designing the human race she would have gone about things quite differently. (A golden shaft of light through the ear for conception perhaps and a well-fitting hatch somewhere modest for escape nice months later.)"(Sylvie's thoughts, after giving birth to Ursula)
 
"When she was sure Frieda was asleep she took the little glass capsule that the chemist had given her and placed it gently in Frieda's mouth and pressed her delicate jaws together. The capsule broke with a tiny crunching noise. A line from one of Donne's 'Holy Sonnets' came into mind as she bit down on her own little glass vial. 'I run to death, and death meets me as fast, And all my pleasures are like yesterday.' She held tightly on to Frieda and soon they were both wrapped in the velvet wings of the black bat and this life was already unreal and gone. She had never chosen death over life before and as she was leaving she knew something had cracked and broken and the order of things had changed. Then the dark obliterated all thoughts." (suicide in Berlin)
 
"Ursula sighed and stretched. 'You know I really, really have had enough of being bombed. 'The war's not going away any time soon, I'm afraid,' said Millie."
 
"What if we had a chance to do it again, and again,' Teddy said, 'until we finally did get it right? Wouldn't that be wonderful?' ' I think it would be exhausting."

Sunday 28 April 2013

'As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning' - Laurie Lee

"It was 1934 and a young man walked to London from the security of the Cotswolds to make his fortune. He was to live by playing the violin and by labouring on a London building site. Then, knowing one Spanish phrase, he decided to see Spain. For a year he tramped through a country in which the signs of impending civil war were clearly visible.
Thirty years later Laurie Lee captured the atmosphere of the Spain he saw with all the freshness and beauty of a young man's vision, creating a lyrical and lucid picture of the beautiful and violent country that was to involve him inextricably." From the back cover of the book.
 
This beautifully written autobiographical book was recommended to me by one of my 'class mates' from Spanish Conversation and Culture class I attend once a week. Since anything connected with the Spanish language, and both culture and history of the Spanish-speaking world is interesting to me I got immersed in the book as soon as I was able to take it out from my local library.  The copy that I just read looks really worn out, yellow pages, beaten cover - must have been read by many over the last years. Yet, it felt good to go through its pages. I love the style of the author - beautiful English. Not being English (nor from any other English speaking country) myself I do appreciate a beautiful English word. Every language has its own beauty and one can definitely find beauty here. At least I did.
The young Laurie walks pre-Civil-War Spain with nothing but his violin and a few basic possessions - which he carries all in one bag. He starts off in Vigo and walks his way down south (via Madrid, Cordova, Seville and many other places), then walks along the southern coast to Almunecar (60 miles east of Malaga). His adventure ends when the Civil War breaks out and he gets picked up by an English destroyer from Gibraltar and taken back home to England. However, in the epilogue he returns to Spain one year later to fight alongside the Republicans. This apparently is the story of Laurie Lee's other autobiographical book  'A Moment of War' - his own real experience of the Spanish Civil War.
The way he paints pre-Civil-War Spain in his novel is very observant. One can easily imagine/feel his impression. At times it can be really surprising. Having in mind how modern  Spain is nowadays it is really difficult to imagine that before the Civil War a great percentage  of the Spanish population could not read nor write, and that the Catholic church had enormous influence on people's lives. Loads of young men and women were choosing (or were made to choose) church life (even very young girls). The impression young Laurie got was that it felt like being trapped in the past. He compared the situation of the 'pueblo' - the Spanish country people to the situation English must have been hundreds years ago. He noticed the poor, the injustice and the beauty. He fell in love with Spain and with its people, and felt connected to them so much he did all to return and fight beside them.

A few quotes from the book:
(in Zamora) "I was getting used to this pattern of Spanish life, which could have been that of England two centuries earlier."
"At the end of the day, the doors and windows admitted all the creatures of the family: father, son, daughter, cousin, the donkey, the pig, the hen, even the harvest mouse and the nesting swallow, bedded together at the fall of darkness."
(in Madrid) "But I think my most lasting impression was still the unhurried dignity and noblesse with which the Spaniard handles his drink. He never gulped, panicked, pleaded with the barman, or let himself be shouted into the street. Drink, for him, was on of the natural privileges of living, rather than the temporary suicide it so often is for others. But then it was lightly taxed here, and there were no licensing laws; and under such conditions one could take one's time."
"Indeed Madrid, the highest capital in Europe, was a crystal platform at his early hour, and the clarity of the air may have been the cause of a number of local obsessions - the people's concern for truth, their naked and pitiless mysticism, their fascination with pleasure and death. They were certainly lofty in their love of the city, putting it first among the many proverbs. 'From the provinces to Madrid - but from Madrid to the sky,' said one with ascending pride. Also; 'When I die, please God, let me go to Heaven, but have a little window to look back on Madrid.' Standing on its mile-high plateaux their city was considered to be the top rung of a ladder reaching just this side of paradise."
(in Cadiz) "I seemed to meet no one in Cadiz except the blind and the crippled, the diseased, the deaf and dumb, whose condition was so hopeless they scarcely bothered to complain but treated it all as a twisted joke. They told me tittering tales of others even more wretched than themselves - the homeless who lived in the Arab drains, who lay down at night among rats and excrement and were washed out to sea twice a year by the floods. They told me of families who scraped the tavern floors for shellfish and took it home to boil for soup, and of others who lived by trapping cats and dogs and roasting them on fires of driftwood."
(in Valdepenas) "Valdepenas was a surprise: a small graceful town surrounded by rich vineyards and prosperous villas - a pocket of good fortune which seemed to produce without effort some of the most genial wines in Spain. the town had an air of privileged well-being, like an oil-well in a desert of hardship; the old men and children had extra flesh on their bones, and even the dogs seemed to shine with fat."
(while he was playing his violin) "I remember the villagers as they listened, blankets held to their throats, dribbles of damp lying along their eyebrows. I felt I could have been with some lost tribal remnant of seventeenth-century Scotland, during one of their pauses between famine and massacre - the children standing barefooted in puddles of dew, old women wrapped in their rancid sheepskins, and the short shaggy men whose squinting faces seemed stuck between a smile and a snarl."
(in Seville) "The Seville quays were unpretentious, and seemed no more nautical than a coal-wharf in Birmingham. The Guadalquivir, at this point, was rather like the Thames at Richmond, and was about as busy as the Paddington Canal. Yet it was from this narrow river, fifty miles from sea, that Columbus sailed to discover America, followed a few years later by the leaking caravelles of Magellan, one of which was the first to encircle the world. Indeed, the waterfront at Seville, with its paddling boys and orange-boats, and its mossy provincial stones, was for almost five hundred years - till the coming of space-aimed rockets - history's most significant launching-pad."
(changes with the Republic, in Almunecar)"So the boys and girls of Almunecar used our rackety dances to explore their new-found liberties. During the warm spring evenings they clung earnestly together, as though intimacy was a new invention, dancing, holding hands, or walking in couples along the shore, arms entwined, watching each other's faces. There were also other freedoms. Books and films appeared, unmutilated by Church of State, bringing to the peasants of the coast, for the first time in generations, a keen breath of the outside world. For a while there was a complete lifting of censorship, even in newspapers and magazines."
(burning of the village church) "...A week later came Feast Day, and a quick change of heart. The smoke-blackened church was filled with lilies. The images of Christ and the Virgin were brought out into the sunlight and loaded as usual on to the fishermen's backs...(...) ...procession...'Blessed be the Virgin....Do not forsake us...' ...It was a day of tears and breast-beating...(...)..Rich and poor mixed their cries together...Profanity, sacrilege, had been a passing madness. This was the Faith as it had always been. Then a few days later, the church was fired again, and this time burnt to a shell."
"Spain was a wasted county of neglected land - much of it held by a handful of men, some of whose vast estates had scarcely been reduced or reshuffled since the days of the Roman Empire. Peasants could work this land for a shilling a day, perhaps for a third of the year, then go hungry. It was this simple incongruity that they hope to correct; this, and a clearing of the air, perhaps some return of dignity, some razing of the barriers of ignorance which still stood as high as the Pyrenees. A Spanish schoolmaster at this time knew less of the outside world than many a shepherd in the days of Columbus. Now it was hoped that there might be some lifting of this intolerable darkness, some freedom to read and write and talk. Men hoped that their wives might be freed of the triple trivialities of the Church - credulity, guilt, and confession; that their sons might be craftsmen rather than serfs, their daughters citizens rather than domestic whores, and that they might hear the children in the evening coming home from fresh-built schools to astonish them with new facts of learning. All this could be brought about now by an act of their government and the peaceful process of law. There was nothing to stop it. Except for that powerful minority who would rather the country first bled to death."
 

Sunday 14 April 2013

We went to London again

Easter week was my usual time off work, and this year it was also half-term break from schools. So, I decided to take my daughter for a little trip to London. After our previous stay in London in autumn last year we decided that our next visit would be mostly about famous London galleries.

The National Gallery main entrance
Took this picture on 2 April 2013
   
Trafalgar Square - The National Gallery behind my back (2 Apr'13)
National Gallery was our first stop. We had visited it before but afterwards felt we needed to spend much more time there on our next visit. And so we did - many hours, as this time we rented the audio guides and walked from painting to painting listening to the guide (listening about paintings that interested us most). I found out and saw a lot, and some paintings just had me standing there ... totally attracted as if glued to them. 'The umbrellas' (Renoir), 'The Boulevard Montmartre at Night' (Pissarro), 'Surprised!' (Rousseau), 'Water-Lilies' (Monet), 'Sunflowers' (Van Gogh), 'Calais Pier' (Turner) and so many others! You just need to be there to feel it.

I was already in possession of the National Gallery Pocket Collection (purchased in the National Gallery shop during our previous visit) which I studied quite a few times over the last few months - remembering the feeling of awe and admiration to the talent of the painters. This time even though we were on quite a tight budget, on entering the gallery shop again and seeing all those books so beautifully displayed I could not help myself and  purchased 'Impressionism - 50 paintings you should know'. I only know about art what is generally known by an average person - most famous names, some paintings and a possibly major (most famous) styles. Impressionist paintings are by far our (my daughter's and my) most favourite ones, therefore I wanted to explore a bit more. That's why this book. I read it on our coach trip back home. And what an interesting read that was. Introduction is all about the famous impressionism painters, how they became friends, their painting were rejected by the Salon and majority of society at the time, but they never gave up.  Then, individual paintings are described (in chronological order according to the year of their creation) and commented on with a little historical background. If one is as impressed by paintings of Pissarro, Monet, Van Gogh, Renoir, Morisot, Manet and so many others as I am and at the same time knows so little about them, I would recommend reading this book.
 
The next day was a visit to both Tate galleries. Tate British was quite quiet that day due to some reconstruction works taking place in some part of the building, therefore part of the collection was not on display (the works are going to be finished in May this year). Nevertheless, there was a lot to see, and it was a real pleasure to actually quietly and intimately contemplate and admire art of Turner, Constable and many others. John Martin's great triptych - Judgement series really caught my attention - especially mighty 'The Great Day of His Wrath'. And it would be very difficult to miss it as its huge in size and very impressive. Then visit to the wonderful world of books about art in the gallery shop. We just wanted to have a glimpse of what is there and ...walked out with two books: one for me about art and another for my daughter - sort of like a play-with-art activity type book.


"This book is a handy guide to a wide range of art 'isms'. From the isms of the Renaissance(..) to more modern isms such as Minimalism and Futurism, this is the ideal introduction to all the significant movements that have shaped art history."
This is how this book is introduced - a guide with lost of photos. "A handy reference book" and I am going to read it all. Looking forward to it.




We took a boat along the river Thames to Tate Modern.
Enormous factory-look-alike building of Tate Modern Gallery
It was a very cold and cloudy day (3 April'13)

View of Thames and St Paul's Cathedral
(from the gallery's café 3 April'13)
I must say Tate Modern made a big impression on me. Such a great collection of modern art. We enjoyed it immensely. There was so much to see. We must go back there again. It was full of people though, so busy that in some places it felt like a train station. I wonder if it is ever any quieter. Anyway, Picasso paintings were there (wow!) and even one huge painting of Monet! "Questioning children" (Karel Appel) really caught my eye - even though so simple - coloured pieces of wood with painted faces of children (in a simple sort of like stick people fashion)  on a wooden board! So simple, yet I could see those children eager, asking questions - I could feel their eagerness.
We were also lucky there was a special exhibition of no other than one of the most leading pop-art  artists: Roy Lichtenstein. We had to pay extra to see it, and it was not cheap, but yes it was definitely worth it. It was wonderful to see the actual paintings and sculptures - so famous! How did they manage to gather that collection since individual pieces came from different galleries and private owners? Must have been a lot of work involved. My daughter will be doing some work on pop art at school at some point, so it was really a great opportunity for her to be introduced to pop art by seeing famous Lichtenstein works.

Just a note: on return home, we visited our local library and this book just 'popped out'. I did not mean to take any book out as I still have some on loan, I was just waiting for my daughter who was looking through teen section. I was just casually looking at some books in languages section - at some Polish and Spanish books and this huge-size book was there sticking out - filed totally in the wrong place. Coincidence? I had no choice I had to take it out now. So, here I am reading about Pop Art now. From introduction: "What is Pop? A play on words, a lifestyle, a particular generation, a new understanding of art? And what is Pop Art - the term for an influential cultural movement of the sixties? Pop Art does not describe a style; it is much rather a collective term for artistic phenomena in which the sense of being in a particular era found its concrete expression....The rules of civilization mould our images of people and things, of nature and technology. Pop is a buzzword.(...) The growing political and economic stability of the post-war era led to a reappreciation of what is normally referred to as "the people" or "the popular". And English word for the people as a mass is the "populace"; the "popular" thus has its roots in the traditions and habits of the people. It is what is loved by the masses. This points us to the origins of the term "Pop Art".

In the evening, after a day fulfilled with art, we went to Oxford Street to have a typical girly wander around some clothes shops and got a lovely summery dress for my daughter in 'Forever 21'.

I always wanted to visit the great Natural History Museum, so the next day we went to see it. It was freezing cold and it was snowing (snowing in London in April!). Anyway, it was so busy - we had to wait in an enormous queue to get in. It took us a while to get in. But once inside - the queue all forgotten - we wandered around, and I loved it! I felt like a kid. It is my type of museum. We were not able to see it all as we were a bit tight with time, our coach back home was leaving that afternoon. But still it was great! I just wished it hadn't been so busy with people!
Extinct Dodo birds (4 Apr'13)

Charles Darwin (4 April'13)

The Main Hall (4 April'13)

The Main Hall (4 April'13)

When we go to London next time we would like to visit British Museum, Victoria and Albert Museum and Harry Potter world (being fans of Harry Potter we must go there - we simply must - we have no choice!)
 

Monday 8 April 2013

The Winter Ghosts ( Kate Mosse) / Labyrinth (TV miniseries 2012)

During Easter, I saw 'Labyrinth' TV miniseries based on Kate Mosse's book by the same title. What an incredible tale! I was really engrossed in it, and after watching the first part I could not wait for the next day to come to see the rest and the end of the story. It contains:  two parallel stories of two women (somehow connected even though there are 800 years between them), mystery, murders, search for Holy Grail, real history of the massacre of Cathars in France, good and evil sisters, unfaithful husband lost in his beautiful wife's evil sister arms, betrayal, mass murder, inquisition, labyrinth and sacred books...  All that! I was loving everything in it. Stunning English actresses: Vanessa Kirby and Jessica Brown Findley (as main characters), also a beautiful Irish actress Katie McGrath (evil sister). And Tom Felton looking so different here (than in 'Harry Potter' - Draco Malfoy).
 
Anyway, having watched the 'Labyrinth' I felt encouraged to read something by Kate Mosse, to see her style and see what else is there. I checked my Kindle books collection first and found two books in there: 'The Cave' and 'The Winter Ghosts'. As I found out 'The Cave' is really a shorter version of the story of 'The Winter Ghosts', I opted for the latter to be my taster book of Kate Mosse's style.
 
Even though I chose the longer version of the two, it was still a quick read. Read it within a few hours on the coach on my way to London. Set mostly in France in  20s and 30s of the 20th century, after the World War I. Pretty much a predictable story of ghosts - of  medieval Cathar people trapped in a sealed cave (which was at first their hiding place from their persecutors then became their tomb). Again, the book touches the subject of persecutions  and massacres of Cathars in the Medieval Ages. Slow moving story and not nearly as impressive as the one in 'Labyrinth'. Looking at the comments on Amazon, I realised that this is not the best of K.Mosse's books in many people's opinion. Therefore, I decided  not to give up on her. Remembering how charmed I was by her 'Labyrinth' tale I will book in the library some other book by her. I am hoping to be no less than immersed and 'bewitched' by the next book. Is it too much too to  ask after seeing the 'Labyrinth'?

Saturday 30 March 2013

War of the worlds (film 2005)


      
I have seen this film a number of times. I love it and was very happy to see it last night yet again (as it was on one of the BBC channels - without the adverts! Wow!). The alien invasion - aliens exterminating people, extracting their blood and tissue out of them - story of one man and his children struggling to survive and trying to get to Boston to reunite the children with their mother. Anyway, is there anybody out there who does not know the story more or less? The novel by H.G. Wells written at the end of the 19th century has inspired many radio and film producers. There were some radio adaptations - with the most famous of all: Orson Welles' adaptation in 1938, which caused panic among the public (as they thought the invasion was actually happening) - this event was then depicted in films ("The Night that Panicked America" made in the 70s was the one I saw years ago). Then there were films for the big screen and even TV series. Well, I love this one - (2005) 'War of the Worlds' directed by no other than famous Steven Spielberg. As it is based in modern times it is more interesting and believable, in my opinion. I take it, special effects have also something to do with it. Not to mention the leading actor - Tom Cruise, and a little Dakota Fanning as his daughter. To sum up, great story, great movie!
 
Now, after I have made it clear that I love the film, I would like to comment, or more like ask questions in regards to certain things that I noticed while watching it last night. First of all, what really stroke me this time was the fact that while the lightning storm disabled all electronic equipment (everything including cars, electric/lights in the houses even watches), there was someone taking photos and even recording with a video camera the first tripod emerging from underground just after the lightning storm! Figure that! Since everything electronic/electrical went dead - how come the video camera was working?
Secondly, surely Roy (the main character) wouldn't be able to get water from the tab in his house if all power equipment was not functioning. As far as I know, you need power to pump water into the pipes and up to the tabs.
Thirdly, they were able to start a car and travel sticking to normal roads, and out of the city almost uninterrupted. Yes, sides of the roads were full of dead cars, and there was enough space for them to  pass. As if all the drivers suspected: no cars are working but never mind, someone will be driving this way anyway so we need to clear the road by moving all the cars out of the way to the side of the road. ??? A bit unbelievable.  At least this is what it looked like to me. Though, on the other hand, roads in US are so much more spacious than in Europe, so who knows.
Also, I was observing that lovely leather jacket of Roy's and noticed that, when they were sleeping in the basement when the plane fell down near the house, Roy was not wearing the jacket and only managed to pick up his gun from the armchair before he run to another lower level cellar/boiler room to escape the explosion. The jacket, like everything else that was left in that basement, must have burnt. But then it suddenly appeared later on  - Roy was wearing it again (in perfect condition) when they were leaving the place.
Moreover, the aliens, even though they were so much more  advanced than people, as the movie suggests they had planned the invasion for thousands if not millions of years by firstly burying the machines underground before humans arrived, yet now when searching houses for hidden humans they used optical 'cameras' and not infrared cameras. Hello! infrared vision has been known for a long time. Were the aliens a bit slow in that respect or may be since the machines had been underground for thousands of years they were simply not equipped with the night vision? Anyway, may be it was just because the producers wanted to add some more drama to already dramatic situation (when they had to hide from the searching eye-look-alike camera). And add they did. It was really nerve-wrecking to see the characters moving around the basement in silence hiding from the evil eye, and I was almost shaking inside with anxiety even though I knew the outcome, having seen the movie a few times before. Silly me!
All in all, film is very entertaining and if one watches it carefully there is always something to think about/wonder about afterwards.



 

Monday 25 March 2013

The Essential Writings - Mahatma Gandhi



 
Everybody knows who Mahatma Gandhi was.  Around the world he touched hearts of , and inspired, a lot of people, promoted the movement of freedom, civil rights, non-violence and helped in leading India to its independence through peaceful means.  I have seen the film "Gandhi" of course, and even visited his little museum  in Mumbai, during my very brief stay in India years ago. But I have never read anything by him nor engaged in his thoughts till now. At the moment I am reading "The Essential Writings" which is basically a collection of his letters, articles and fragments of  books. It is an interesting but not easy read. It does not read like a novel and therefore it is taking me ages to go through - reading other books along the way.
 
Quotes from the introduction :
"Consequently for him the truth-seeker should be open to the insights of all traditions, and should view all with benign tolerance. For him, true religion was not about theology, the construction of belief systems, but about morality, the practical business of following after truth in daily life and interactions."
"In particular, Gandhi, drawing on Hindu tradition, felt that the non-attachement involved in sexual restraint would help the individual develop his or her spiritual vision and power as well as the capacity for public service."
"As in his view all people are interconnected, so an individual's life must always be conducted in such a way as to enhance the lives of others: in particular this means simplicity rather than over-consumption at the expense of others, charitable service rather than personal self-regard ..."
"Serious engagement with his life and thought, however, is a way to contemplate some of the profoundest problems humans face in their lives as individuals and as communities, and to recognize that there are resources on which men and women can draw to help them fashion modes of resolving conflicts with enhance rather than threaten to destroy the human race."
 
Quotes from the Ghandi's writings:
"The more I reflect and look back on the past, the more vividly do I feel my limitations."
"...what is possible for one is possible for all,..."
"There are some things which are known only to oneself and one's Maker."
"But I worship God as Truth only. I have not yet found him, but I am seeking after him."
"Often in my progress I have had faint glimpse of the Absolute Truth, God, and daily the conviction is growing upon me that He alone is real and all else is unreal."
"I am a humble seeker after truth."
"I want to live at peace with both friend and foe."
"One step enough for me."
"...I greatly value people who abuse me...(...) I like such critics a thousand times better than those who worship me, applaud me, but at the same time commit murders and disregards what I say."
"He who eats without labour eats sin, is verily a thief."
"A man cannot become free from attachments by making a show of being so."
"Tolstoy gives a simple answer to those Indians who appear impatient to drive the whites our of India. We are our own slaves, not of the British. This should be engraved in our minds. The whites cannot remain if we do not want them."
"The more I observe, the greater is the dissatisfaction with the modern life. I see nothing good in it. Men are good. But they are poor victims making themselves miserable under the false belief that they are doing good."
"Optimism indicates faith..."
 
Still reading...

Gladiator (2000 film)

How many times have I seen this film? I have no idea. Many! It is one of my favourites and I go back to it ever so often. I don't think I know anyone who hasn't seen the film -  but to be honest I don't go around asking people about it so wouldn't know for sure. Set in 180 AD, the story of a brilliant Roman general Maximus (faithfull to the old emperor Marcus Aurelius), who gets sent to death by the new young emperor, escapes only to find his family brutally murdered by the order of the same emperor, gets taken as a slave and is sold to become a gladiator, is very moving. Once in Rome the Spaniard - as they call him - becomes quickly very popular with the crowd and faces Commodus - the young emperor again. He wants to revenge his family and the old emperor - Marcus Aurelius (who was murdered by his own son, Commodus). There is a plot of a military coup - to overthrow Commodus and establish Rome as a Republic ruled by Senate only - which fails. In the end Maximus dies (and rejoins his family in the afterlife) having killed Commodus in combat on the Colosseum public arena.
Why do I love this film so much? As Commodus says himself in the film: "The general who became a slave. The slave who became a gladiator. The gladiator who defied an emperor. Stiking story!" and in my opion the story told so well with the use of art of filming.  I love it because of this very reason the very well-told story, the hero/actor (played by Russel Crowe),  the scenery, the setting in the Roman times - you name it. And of course the music! The music is just delightful! 
So, having seen this film for the umteenth time I decided to have a little browse on the internet to see how historically accurate the film is. And here is what I found out:
Well, apparently the film depicted the Roman times and culture in general quite closely to the historical truth with its wars, violence, well-spread slavery, gladiators, games, brutal murders, incest. However (as I found out on Able Media article "The movie Gladiator in historical perspective" by Allen Ward (2001)), Maximus is a fictional character and it is said to have been influenced by a different true historical figures like: Spartacus (who led a revolt of slaves), Marcus Nonius Macrinus (a general and a friend of the emperor Marcus Aurelius), Narcissus (who strangled Commodus in his bath) and Cincinnatus (a farmer who became a dictator of Rome for only a couple of weeks). Also, Marcus Aurelius is believed to have died of plague - not having been murdered by his son Commodus. The young emperor, Commodus, ruled Rome for 13 years and not a few months, or 1 or 2 years (?) the movie suggests (it does not specify how long the story takes). He did not die in the combat on the public arena but was strangled in his bath by Narcissus. It was true, though, that Commodus trained same as gladiators, and very often took part in gladiator combats on the public arena. Even though he seems evil enough in the movie, apparently he was much worse than that in reality. According to the article I read on The Guardian website, "Gladiator: nice patricide but where are all the pinecones?" by Alex von Tunzelmann (2008), Commodus in the film is "a lightweight", as the real Commodus used to herd women, snog men, kill rare animals, feed his guards poisoned figs, force people to beat themselves to death with pinecones and much more.
There are much more details about the discrepancies between the historical events and the film in the articles mentioned above (which I am not going to repeat here) but it still does not change the fact that "Gladiator" is a wonderful film, and I love it (have I mentioned that before?).
One more thing that I want to mention is Loki - german shepherd - general's dog, which appears at the beggining of the film. I love the dog for obvious reasons - owing two german shephards myself I cannot just not notice it. But the truth is that german shephard as a breed developed only just over a hundred years ago, so wouldn't be really there in the Antiquity (which was mentioned in one of the articles mentioned above).
 
My favourite quotes from the film:
"Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back." ( Marcus Aurelius)
"Ultimately, we are all dead man... We have to decide how to meet death in order to be remembered as men". (Proximo)
"Today, I saw a slave become more powerful than the emperor of Rome". (Lucilla)
 

Sunday 10 March 2013

The Hundred-Year-Old Man Who Climbed Out of the Window and Disappeared (Jonas Jonasson)

Quote: "Things are what they are, and whatever will be will be." So true.
It is one of the most popular books at the moment. So, I got curious and got it on my Kindle - yet another good buy for 20p. At first, I was laughing - the idea of a 100 year old escaping from a care home on his 100th birthday, still wearing his splippers and stealing a suitcase from a young unpleasant man (who could not fit this suitcase with him in the bus station toilet) was really funny. So, the story begun. And it got crazier and crazier with every page (btw - on Kindle there are no pages but percentages showing how much of the book one has read so far). Anyway, there are two stories being told pararellely - one, the story of now (2005 in fact), and the other the story of life of Allan (the 100 year old man) since he was young. When I got to the moment that he was in Spain during the Civil War and saved Franco's life (by pure coincidence), I though 'how ridiculous this book is!' and was almost ready to put it down. Yet, I continued. Yes, both stories got even crazier and more ridiculous, completely absurd - yet entertaining. And I began to enjoy it again. In his long life Allan managed to travel the world in a most peculiar way. He helped Oppenheimer in building the atomic bomb, saved Mao's wife in China, walked Himalayas, offended Stalin and as a result spent years in a Gulag in Vladivostoc (if I remember well) and much more... A man with no political views, no religion, strong attachement to vodka, extremaly intelligent (even though he did only three years of school in his life), very hard working, with little material needs and no worries at all. It seemed as everything that happened to him did not bother him much. He decided to break out from his imprisonment in Russia only because there was no vodka. And here is something that I would question. My grand-uncle (my grandmother's brother) was sent to Siberia to a gulag for many many years (people were sent to Siberia's camps for a lot of reasons). In fact, the family did not see him for over 35 years! Then the only way he could survive was thanks to alcohol. Because in Siberia it was sooo sooo cold the only way to keep warm was to drink a lot of alcohol. They did have it there,somehow. I remember this grand-uncle of mine, when I was a little girl at family reunions, he could drink a litre of spirit that was almost twice the strength of vodka and was still fine. Years of practice you see!
Anyway, one hundred-year-old not only found a lot of money in that stolen suitcase but also made some friends on the way, and somehow managed to kill (not directly) two young unpleasant men that were after the suitcase (which was full of money). There is also an elephant pet and much more... I would recommend the book to anyone who wants to read something entertaining. The book is enjoyable, light and ridiculous but clearly conveys the message that life if for living not for worrying about it!
 
Some quotes from the book:
"It took a while before the message seeped into his soul, but once there, it was there for ever: Things are what they are, and whatever will be will be."
"Revenge is like politics, one thing always leads to another until bad has become worse, and worse has become worst."
"Allan had always reasoned about religion that if you couldn't know for sure then there was no point in going around guessing."
"You should beware of priests, my son. And people who don't drink vodka. Worst of all are priests who don't drink vodka."
"Allan thought it sounded unnecessary for the people in the seventeenth century to kill each other. If they had only been a little patient they would all have died in the end anyway."
"Never try to out-drink a Swede, unless you happen to be a Finn or at least a Russian."
(well, my personal note: thinking about my grand-uncle - no one could outdrink him, so I would add to that list Polish as well)
"People could behave how they liked, but Allan considered that in general it was quite unnecessary to be grumpy if you had the chance not to." (love this one!)
"...the very biggest and apparently most impossible conflicts on earth were based on the dialogue: 'You are stupid, no it's you who are stupid, no it's you who are stupid.' The solution, said Allan, was often to down a bottle of vodka together and then look ahead." (my note: if it was only that simple!)
"Well, now you can see how sensible it is not to start your day by guessing what might happen, said Allan. After all, how long would I have had to go on guessing before I guessed this?" (Allan was referring to the fact that in the morning he was sitting in the park (in Sweden) on a bench with no plans for the day and in the evening he found himself on a Russian sub-marine.)
"Allan admitted that the difference between madness and genius was subtle, and that he couldn't with certainty say which it was in this case, but that he had his suspicions."

Thursday 7 March 2013

Todas las Familias Felices / Carlos Fuentes


Ayer acabé de leer "Todas las familias felices" de Carlos Fuentes.
El libro es una colección de cortas historias, que tratan sobre diferentes problemas en familias del México contemporáneo, estrelazadas por "coros". Carlos Fuentes pinta una vida de familia perturbada y dañada en la sociedad de hoy (moderna). Los personajes son muy complicados, y en mi opinión a veces un poco exagerados. Los diálogos entre personajes están mezclados con los diálogos internos, y algunas veces no se sabe si el texto representa / muestra un pensamiento o una verdadera conversación. Por lo menos, esta es mi impresión.
Encontré también un elemento fantástico en una de las historias - cuando La Virgen Santa reacciona a las oraciones de una madre (que reza por su hijo). ¿Pasó en realidad o la madre se lo imaginaba?
 No lo sé.
Mis historias favoritas son:
"Una prima sin gracia" - sobre una pareja infeliz y una prima fea que tiene encuentros amorosos con el hombre (de esta pareja);
"Madre dolorosa" - una historia de una madre que escribe cartas al hombre que asesinó a su hija - esta es una historia muy triste;
"Los novios" - una historia sobre una pareja sesentona que se encuentra en Venecia despúes de más de cuarenta años;
"La familia armada" - una historia de un general que debe tomar una decisión radical - cual de sus dos hijos tiene que morir.
Los coros, que puntan las historias, son generalmente trágicos, y son como relatos o voces de los niños maltratados, hijas violadas, unos traficantes, huérfanos...etc. Me conmovían muchos de ellos aunque tengo que admitir que algunos no entendía. El primer coro "Coro de las madrecitas callejeras" es uno de estos que tocaban mis emociones fuertemente. Un niño todavía no nacido - niño de una adolescente de la calle, pobre y sin futuro, dice:
"¿Es mejor estar adentro o afuera?
 Yo no quiero estar aquí mamacita
 Échame mejor al basurero madre
 No quiero nacer y crecer cada día más pendejo
 Sin baño madrecita sin comida madre
 (....)
 ¿Cómo quieres que me quiera madre?
 No te odio a ti
 Me odio yo
 No valgo una mierda de perro madre..."
 
Haber leído otros libros de Carlos Fuentes, en Español, "Aura, "La muerte de Artemio Cruz", "La voluntad y la fortuna" (una mitad de este libro) y ahora "Todas las familias felices", estoy segura que voy a leer más de sus obras. Aunque me cuesta mucho trabajo leerle en Español, pienso que vale la pena porque su palabra tiene algo especial (aunque es a veces bruta) que me hace ver las historias con mis emociones.

Saturday 2 March 2013

Winter in Madrid - C.J. Sansom / Amar en tiempos revueltos (tve.es series)

Page turner.  Well, I read it on my Kindle so it was the matter of pressing a button not turning pages actually, but I cannot call a book a button-presser can I? The book cost me £0.20 on Amazon - well-spent 20p. Read it in three days (this week). Just couldn't put it down. 
The story is based in Madrid after the Civil War - shows the damage, poverty, misery and suffering of the Spanish people during Franco's dictatorship. It's a bit of a spy and love story set during those horrible times. Harry , the main character, wounded in Dunkierk still suffering with some panick attacks,  is spying on Sandy, his former school friend who is an important but shady businessman in Spain. Barbara, Sandy's lover, still in love with Bernie who was believed dead in the battle of Jarama during the Civil War. However, Bernie, communist, Harry's best friend from school,  is still very much alive and imprisoned in a work camp. And then the story develops. Harry falls in love with a Spanish girl Sofia, Barbara finds out Bernie is alive and plans to help him escape. And so he does but it is not all a happy happy ending.
Quotes:
"But thats what happens with revolutions, the scum always rises to the top."
"Sandy nodded: Like I said in the cafe, the future belongs to people who can reach out and seize life. We should never let the past hold us back. And there is no such thing as fate."

Music CD cover
The book reminded me of my favourite Spanish tv series/soap opera  I followed till it finished in 2012 - 'Amar en Tiempos Revueltos' (on Spanish TV on line). Watched it almost religiously for a year and a half as a listening excercise to keep up with my Spanish  - cought up with all the seven seasons (not all the episodes though  as there are about 1700 of them - would be impossible in one and a half year). It is really wonderful that TVE Espana stores all the episodes on line and it is possible to watch them anywhere in the world. The story is based in Madrid (en la Plaza de los Frutos) and starts just before the Civil War and continues on until late 50's with different love and family dramas - portraying the suffering of the madrilenians, the suppresions, the killings, the fascism, dictatorship rules and how they affected every day life of Spanish people, the role of women as wifes and mothers only, resistance, spy stories, escapes, tortures - it coveres it all - you name it. I learnt a lot about what was happening in Spain after the Civil War thanks to the series.  Shame they decided to discontinue it. Lack of money I guess. Well, actually antena 3 of Spanish tv sort of continues it with a different name 'Amar es para siempre', but it is impossible to watch it online outside Spain.