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I read somewhere: "The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you somebedy else" (E.E.Cummings). This is just such a true statement for me. I tried to fit in, and felt out of place. With the passing years, having experienced lots of unpleasentness I have realized that it is impossible to be happy while trying to satisfy everybody and follow the conventions that don't really agree with me or do not fit in my life. Finding myself still...

Sunday 28 April 2013

'As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning' - Laurie Lee

"It was 1934 and a young man walked to London from the security of the Cotswolds to make his fortune. He was to live by playing the violin and by labouring on a London building site. Then, knowing one Spanish phrase, he decided to see Spain. For a year he tramped through a country in which the signs of impending civil war were clearly visible.
Thirty years later Laurie Lee captured the atmosphere of the Spain he saw with all the freshness and beauty of a young man's vision, creating a lyrical and lucid picture of the beautiful and violent country that was to involve him inextricably." From the back cover of the book.
 
This beautifully written autobiographical book was recommended to me by one of my 'class mates' from Spanish Conversation and Culture class I attend once a week. Since anything connected with the Spanish language, and both culture and history of the Spanish-speaking world is interesting to me I got immersed in the book as soon as I was able to take it out from my local library.  The copy that I just read looks really worn out, yellow pages, beaten cover - must have been read by many over the last years. Yet, it felt good to go through its pages. I love the style of the author - beautiful English. Not being English (nor from any other English speaking country) myself I do appreciate a beautiful English word. Every language has its own beauty and one can definitely find beauty here. At least I did.
The young Laurie walks pre-Civil-War Spain with nothing but his violin and a few basic possessions - which he carries all in one bag. He starts off in Vigo and walks his way down south (via Madrid, Cordova, Seville and many other places), then walks along the southern coast to Almunecar (60 miles east of Malaga). His adventure ends when the Civil War breaks out and he gets picked up by an English destroyer from Gibraltar and taken back home to England. However, in the epilogue he returns to Spain one year later to fight alongside the Republicans. This apparently is the story of Laurie Lee's other autobiographical book  'A Moment of War' - his own real experience of the Spanish Civil War.
The way he paints pre-Civil-War Spain in his novel is very observant. One can easily imagine/feel his impression. At times it can be really surprising. Having in mind how modern  Spain is nowadays it is really difficult to imagine that before the Civil War a great percentage  of the Spanish population could not read nor write, and that the Catholic church had enormous influence on people's lives. Loads of young men and women were choosing (or were made to choose) church life (even very young girls). The impression young Laurie got was that it felt like being trapped in the past. He compared the situation of the 'pueblo' - the Spanish country people to the situation English must have been hundreds years ago. He noticed the poor, the injustice and the beauty. He fell in love with Spain and with its people, and felt connected to them so much he did all to return and fight beside them.

A few quotes from the book:
(in Zamora) "I was getting used to this pattern of Spanish life, which could have been that of England two centuries earlier."
"At the end of the day, the doors and windows admitted all the creatures of the family: father, son, daughter, cousin, the donkey, the pig, the hen, even the harvest mouse and the nesting swallow, bedded together at the fall of darkness."
(in Madrid) "But I think my most lasting impression was still the unhurried dignity and noblesse with which the Spaniard handles his drink. He never gulped, panicked, pleaded with the barman, or let himself be shouted into the street. Drink, for him, was on of the natural privileges of living, rather than the temporary suicide it so often is for others. But then it was lightly taxed here, and there were no licensing laws; and under such conditions one could take one's time."
"Indeed Madrid, the highest capital in Europe, was a crystal platform at his early hour, and the clarity of the air may have been the cause of a number of local obsessions - the people's concern for truth, their naked and pitiless mysticism, their fascination with pleasure and death. They were certainly lofty in their love of the city, putting it first among the many proverbs. 'From the provinces to Madrid - but from Madrid to the sky,' said one with ascending pride. Also; 'When I die, please God, let me go to Heaven, but have a little window to look back on Madrid.' Standing on its mile-high plateaux their city was considered to be the top rung of a ladder reaching just this side of paradise."
(in Cadiz) "I seemed to meet no one in Cadiz except the blind and the crippled, the diseased, the deaf and dumb, whose condition was so hopeless they scarcely bothered to complain but treated it all as a twisted joke. They told me tittering tales of others even more wretched than themselves - the homeless who lived in the Arab drains, who lay down at night among rats and excrement and were washed out to sea twice a year by the floods. They told me of families who scraped the tavern floors for shellfish and took it home to boil for soup, and of others who lived by trapping cats and dogs and roasting them on fires of driftwood."
(in Valdepenas) "Valdepenas was a surprise: a small graceful town surrounded by rich vineyards and prosperous villas - a pocket of good fortune which seemed to produce without effort some of the most genial wines in Spain. the town had an air of privileged well-being, like an oil-well in a desert of hardship; the old men and children had extra flesh on their bones, and even the dogs seemed to shine with fat."
(while he was playing his violin) "I remember the villagers as they listened, blankets held to their throats, dribbles of damp lying along their eyebrows. I felt I could have been with some lost tribal remnant of seventeenth-century Scotland, during one of their pauses between famine and massacre - the children standing barefooted in puddles of dew, old women wrapped in their rancid sheepskins, and the short shaggy men whose squinting faces seemed stuck between a smile and a snarl."
(in Seville) "The Seville quays were unpretentious, and seemed no more nautical than a coal-wharf in Birmingham. The Guadalquivir, at this point, was rather like the Thames at Richmond, and was about as busy as the Paddington Canal. Yet it was from this narrow river, fifty miles from sea, that Columbus sailed to discover America, followed a few years later by the leaking caravelles of Magellan, one of which was the first to encircle the world. Indeed, the waterfront at Seville, with its paddling boys and orange-boats, and its mossy provincial stones, was for almost five hundred years - till the coming of space-aimed rockets - history's most significant launching-pad."
(changes with the Republic, in Almunecar)"So the boys and girls of Almunecar used our rackety dances to explore their new-found liberties. During the warm spring evenings they clung earnestly together, as though intimacy was a new invention, dancing, holding hands, or walking in couples along the shore, arms entwined, watching each other's faces. There were also other freedoms. Books and films appeared, unmutilated by Church of State, bringing to the peasants of the coast, for the first time in generations, a keen breath of the outside world. For a while there was a complete lifting of censorship, even in newspapers and magazines."
(burning of the village church) "...A week later came Feast Day, and a quick change of heart. The smoke-blackened church was filled with lilies. The images of Christ and the Virgin were brought out into the sunlight and loaded as usual on to the fishermen's backs...(...) ...procession...'Blessed be the Virgin....Do not forsake us...' ...It was a day of tears and breast-beating...(...)..Rich and poor mixed their cries together...Profanity, sacrilege, had been a passing madness. This was the Faith as it had always been. Then a few days later, the church was fired again, and this time burnt to a shell."
"Spain was a wasted county of neglected land - much of it held by a handful of men, some of whose vast estates had scarcely been reduced or reshuffled since the days of the Roman Empire. Peasants could work this land for a shilling a day, perhaps for a third of the year, then go hungry. It was this simple incongruity that they hope to correct; this, and a clearing of the air, perhaps some return of dignity, some razing of the barriers of ignorance which still stood as high as the Pyrenees. A Spanish schoolmaster at this time knew less of the outside world than many a shepherd in the days of Columbus. Now it was hoped that there might be some lifting of this intolerable darkness, some freedom to read and write and talk. Men hoped that their wives might be freed of the triple trivialities of the Church - credulity, guilt, and confession; that their sons might be craftsmen rather than serfs, their daughters citizens rather than domestic whores, and that they might hear the children in the evening coming home from fresh-built schools to astonish them with new facts of learning. All this could be brought about now by an act of their government and the peaceful process of law. There was nothing to stop it. Except for that powerful minority who would rather the country first bled to death."
 

Sunday 14 April 2013

We went to London again

Easter week was my usual time off work, and this year it was also half-term break from schools. So, I decided to take my daughter for a little trip to London. After our previous stay in London in autumn last year we decided that our next visit would be mostly about famous London galleries.

The National Gallery main entrance
Took this picture on 2 April 2013
   
Trafalgar Square - The National Gallery behind my back (2 Apr'13)
National Gallery was our first stop. We had visited it before but afterwards felt we needed to spend much more time there on our next visit. And so we did - many hours, as this time we rented the audio guides and walked from painting to painting listening to the guide (listening about paintings that interested us most). I found out and saw a lot, and some paintings just had me standing there ... totally attracted as if glued to them. 'The umbrellas' (Renoir), 'The Boulevard Montmartre at Night' (Pissarro), 'Surprised!' (Rousseau), 'Water-Lilies' (Monet), 'Sunflowers' (Van Gogh), 'Calais Pier' (Turner) and so many others! You just need to be there to feel it.

I was already in possession of the National Gallery Pocket Collection (purchased in the National Gallery shop during our previous visit) which I studied quite a few times over the last few months - remembering the feeling of awe and admiration to the talent of the painters. This time even though we were on quite a tight budget, on entering the gallery shop again and seeing all those books so beautifully displayed I could not help myself and  purchased 'Impressionism - 50 paintings you should know'. I only know about art what is generally known by an average person - most famous names, some paintings and a possibly major (most famous) styles. Impressionist paintings are by far our (my daughter's and my) most favourite ones, therefore I wanted to explore a bit more. That's why this book. I read it on our coach trip back home. And what an interesting read that was. Introduction is all about the famous impressionism painters, how they became friends, their painting were rejected by the Salon and majority of society at the time, but they never gave up.  Then, individual paintings are described (in chronological order according to the year of their creation) and commented on with a little historical background. If one is as impressed by paintings of Pissarro, Monet, Van Gogh, Renoir, Morisot, Manet and so many others as I am and at the same time knows so little about them, I would recommend reading this book.
 
The next day was a visit to both Tate galleries. Tate British was quite quiet that day due to some reconstruction works taking place in some part of the building, therefore part of the collection was not on display (the works are going to be finished in May this year). Nevertheless, there was a lot to see, and it was a real pleasure to actually quietly and intimately contemplate and admire art of Turner, Constable and many others. John Martin's great triptych - Judgement series really caught my attention - especially mighty 'The Great Day of His Wrath'. And it would be very difficult to miss it as its huge in size and very impressive. Then visit to the wonderful world of books about art in the gallery shop. We just wanted to have a glimpse of what is there and ...walked out with two books: one for me about art and another for my daughter - sort of like a play-with-art activity type book.


"This book is a handy guide to a wide range of art 'isms'. From the isms of the Renaissance(..) to more modern isms such as Minimalism and Futurism, this is the ideal introduction to all the significant movements that have shaped art history."
This is how this book is introduced - a guide with lost of photos. "A handy reference book" and I am going to read it all. Looking forward to it.




We took a boat along the river Thames to Tate Modern.
Enormous factory-look-alike building of Tate Modern Gallery
It was a very cold and cloudy day (3 April'13)

View of Thames and St Paul's Cathedral
(from the gallery's cafĂ© 3 April'13)
I must say Tate Modern made a big impression on me. Such a great collection of modern art. We enjoyed it immensely. There was so much to see. We must go back there again. It was full of people though, so busy that in some places it felt like a train station. I wonder if it is ever any quieter. Anyway, Picasso paintings were there (wow!) and even one huge painting of Monet! "Questioning children" (Karel Appel) really caught my eye - even though so simple - coloured pieces of wood with painted faces of children (in a simple sort of like stick people fashion)  on a wooden board! So simple, yet I could see those children eager, asking questions - I could feel their eagerness.
We were also lucky there was a special exhibition of no other than one of the most leading pop-art  artists: Roy Lichtenstein. We had to pay extra to see it, and it was not cheap, but yes it was definitely worth it. It was wonderful to see the actual paintings and sculptures - so famous! How did they manage to gather that collection since individual pieces came from different galleries and private owners? Must have been a lot of work involved. My daughter will be doing some work on pop art at school at some point, so it was really a great opportunity for her to be introduced to pop art by seeing famous Lichtenstein works.

Just a note: on return home, we visited our local library and this book just 'popped out'. I did not mean to take any book out as I still have some on loan, I was just waiting for my daughter who was looking through teen section. I was just casually looking at some books in languages section - at some Polish and Spanish books and this huge-size book was there sticking out - filed totally in the wrong place. Coincidence? I had no choice I had to take it out now. So, here I am reading about Pop Art now. From introduction: "What is Pop? A play on words, a lifestyle, a particular generation, a new understanding of art? And what is Pop Art - the term for an influential cultural movement of the sixties? Pop Art does not describe a style; it is much rather a collective term for artistic phenomena in which the sense of being in a particular era found its concrete expression....The rules of civilization mould our images of people and things, of nature and technology. Pop is a buzzword.(...) The growing political and economic stability of the post-war era led to a reappreciation of what is normally referred to as "the people" or "the popular". And English word for the people as a mass is the "populace"; the "popular" thus has its roots in the traditions and habits of the people. It is what is loved by the masses. This points us to the origins of the term "Pop Art".

In the evening, after a day fulfilled with art, we went to Oxford Street to have a typical girly wander around some clothes shops and got a lovely summery dress for my daughter in 'Forever 21'.

I always wanted to visit the great Natural History Museum, so the next day we went to see it. It was freezing cold and it was snowing (snowing in London in April!). Anyway, it was so busy - we had to wait in an enormous queue to get in. It took us a while to get in. But once inside - the queue all forgotten - we wandered around, and I loved it! I felt like a kid. It is my type of museum. We were not able to see it all as we were a bit tight with time, our coach back home was leaving that afternoon. But still it was great! I just wished it hadn't been so busy with people!
Extinct Dodo birds (4 Apr'13)

Charles Darwin (4 April'13)

The Main Hall (4 April'13)

The Main Hall (4 April'13)

When we go to London next time we would like to visit British Museum, Victoria and Albert Museum and Harry Potter world (being fans of Harry Potter we must go there - we simply must - we have no choice!)
 

Monday 8 April 2013

The Winter Ghosts ( Kate Mosse) / Labyrinth (TV miniseries 2012)

During Easter, I saw 'Labyrinth' TV miniseries based on Kate Mosse's book by the same title. What an incredible tale! I was really engrossed in it, and after watching the first part I could not wait for the next day to come to see the rest and the end of the story. It contains:  two parallel stories of two women (somehow connected even though there are 800 years between them), mystery, murders, search for Holy Grail, real history of the massacre of Cathars in France, good and evil sisters, unfaithful husband lost in his beautiful wife's evil sister arms, betrayal, mass murder, inquisition, labyrinth and sacred books...  All that! I was loving everything in it. Stunning English actresses: Vanessa Kirby and Jessica Brown Findley (as main characters), also a beautiful Irish actress Katie McGrath (evil sister). And Tom Felton looking so different here (than in 'Harry Potter' - Draco Malfoy).
 
Anyway, having watched the 'Labyrinth' I felt encouraged to read something by Kate Mosse, to see her style and see what else is there. I checked my Kindle books collection first and found two books in there: 'The Cave' and 'The Winter Ghosts'. As I found out 'The Cave' is really a shorter version of the story of 'The Winter Ghosts', I opted for the latter to be my taster book of Kate Mosse's style.
 
Even though I chose the longer version of the two, it was still a quick read. Read it within a few hours on the coach on my way to London. Set mostly in France in  20s and 30s of the 20th century, after the World War I. Pretty much a predictable story of ghosts - of  medieval Cathar people trapped in a sealed cave (which was at first their hiding place from their persecutors then became their tomb). Again, the book touches the subject of persecutions  and massacres of Cathars in the Medieval Ages. Slow moving story and not nearly as impressive as the one in 'Labyrinth'. Looking at the comments on Amazon, I realised that this is not the best of K.Mosse's books in many people's opinion. Therefore, I decided  not to give up on her. Remembering how charmed I was by her 'Labyrinth' tale I will book in the library some other book by her. I am hoping to be no less than immersed and 'bewitched' by the next book. Is it too much too to  ask after seeing the 'Labyrinth'?